That is the problem when people know too much about you..

1)they will judge you

2)they will tell the other

3)they will share your story

4)they will underestimate you

5)they will compare you with someone else

X siapa pon faham...kecuali-Nya

Org sllu bising..knp ko mcm ni..knp buat ini..cubalah jadi mcm ni...diorg x taw..sbnrnya bukan smua mudah bagi setiap org..masing2 ad kesusahan masing2..x smua org senang..x semua org ssh..dgn cara ap seseorang boleh komen walhal dia x berada dlm situasi itu..sesetengah org..x nk pon benda tu terjadi..even klo pencuri pon kta akan tny..knp mencuri..?kita x boleh salahkan dia melulu..hanya tuhan yang tahu kenapa dia berbuat mcm tu..and hanya tuhan yg tahu kesusahan hamba2 nya..and tuhan x kan turunkan ujian kalo Dia tahu insan tu x blh nk terima ujian tu..xpelah..lepas ni..insyaallah smua bnda2 yang menyedihkan ni..akan berakhir..Ya Allah..mudahkan rezeki hamba mu ini...permudahkan perjalanan ini..Amin..

Cara mcm x suka..

Kdg2 kita mcm x suka cara..tpi kita suka hasilnya..bunyi mcm benci..tp sbnrnya ap yg kita dpat..menyenangkan kita akhirnya..

Layang-layang terputus...

Roda..hidup ini satu roda...bila kita pusing...ianya bulat...kalo haus pn roda tu...ianya akan haus sekata...adilkan roda tu..xtaw..mana permulaan..dimana akhirnya...xtaw mana atas dan yg mana bawah..knp kdg2 org ckp..ada kat atas..kdg2 ada kat bawah..walhal kita sndri x taw mana satu atas mana satu bwh..hidup ni mcm roda..kdg2 trasa bergerak perlahan..kdg2 roda tu bergerak laju..bgi hidup aku..roda tu umpama bergerak perlahan..trasa sgt lama duduk dibawah..mungkin sbb ujian yg terlalu bnyk..buatkan aku rasa pergerakkan roda aku perlahan..hmm..ujian..sgt ujian.. Betoi kata pn azfahanee..the number one stress for a student..financial..student..bg aku..atau hnya aku je yg rasa...maybe segelintir..student umpama peminta sedekah..yang hnya mampu meminta..xmampu lagi utk memberi...terasa perit sbnrnya meminta..kdg2 rasa malas dah nk meminta..tp ap nk buat..mmg xde langsung income..as we are student..nama pn student..mana nk boleh income..klo ad income pn..from parents..untungnya ad parents..kan..?hargailah..kerana bila smpai satu masa..kita x sedar pn nikmat tu ditarik balik..parents..bila ad kita x sedar pn ianya suatu nikmat..bila dah xde..bru kta sedar..nikmat tu dah berlalu pergi..kasih sayang dan pengorbanan seorang ibu dan ayah..x kan sama dgn kakak dan abg..walaupun kakak dan abang kandung..xkan sama..lumrah..fitrah saudara mara dan ibu bapa..ibu bapa x lan pernah..berkira...istilah hutang x pnh wujud antara ibu dan ayah terhadap kita..tapi..dgn adik beradik..istilah hutang perkara biasa..:) tanggungan..kita adalah tanggungjawab kita..sebut senang..bukan..tapi nk lakukan..sangat sukar..antara lelaki dan perempuan..rasa bertanggungjawab..lebih besar kepada siapa..?sudah tentu lelaki...perempuan..ssh nk jmp yg bertanggungjawab...oleh kerana tu lah..lelaki diangakat sebagai ketua..dalam segala hal...bukan perempuan...untung kiranya..sebuah keluarga..punyai ibu dan bapa..anak sulung lelaki..sekiranya berlaku ap2..anak sulung lelaki yg dpt jalankan tanggungjawab dia..menjadi ketua..hidup ini terasa sukar...bila smua ni akan berakhir..aku sangat berharap..ya Allah..Kau akhirilah semua kesukaran ini pada hujung tahun ini..Kau kurniakanlah kejayaan bagi hamba Mu ini utk menamatkan pengajian...ya Allah..aku mohon kepadaMu..murahkan lah rezeki ku..permudahkanlah jalan hidupku..permudahkan urusanku..permudahkan rancanganku..kuatkanlah hatiku..Amin Ya Rabbal Al-amin...

Its a good weekend

Hari jumaat dan sabtu yang sgt bersejarah...teman si dia buat assingment...dia dtg dari kuala nerang..smpai ke merbok..family dia hntr..and for the first time...seeing one of her family...abg wan and her kak na...having dinner..acompanied by my friend...zetty and mak tok..tq korg..teman di saat genting..and bg tumpang si dia tido..:) i appreciate it..and later thanks to syud housemate..for one night of her staying..actually teman dia buat thesis utk final year dia..ulang alik kampung raga yan utk edar questionaire..mkn bsama family dia malam tu sgt seronok..dengan kenyang perot..mcm2 abg wan order smpai sendat lah perot..segan jgk..abang wan dtg tmpt kita dia yg belanja..maybe nnt kli jmpa next time..saya blanja pulak..harap2 ad lah rezeki..bjumpa lagi..family si dia sgt friendly..ramah lah..:) murah dgn senyuman..overall weekend spend time with her..having her by my side..it is a good thing..sgt bahagia..:) walau ade sedikit letih...ap pon..siapkan thesis awak eah..?cepat2 habis...:) bnyk jgk tempat sy bwk dia ronda around sungai petani..bawak anak buah jgk..hehe..najiha..anak kepada abg wan dgn kak na...:) first time jmp..agak malu orgnya..and lepas dh brpe hari..she is kinda sporting..:) ad a few pic..of us around the weekend..ok..thats it...good night eberibadi...

         

Wonderful day

Hari ni Si Dia dtg sini..:) sempat tgk movie..tgk fast 6..crita yang sgt terbaik..hari yg sgt x bosan...ad dia temankan kita..dari bfast..smpai lah lunch...smpai tgk wayang..walau x byk sgt aktiviti..tp rasa sgt seronok..thanks awk..u make my day...best td tgk crita fast 6...rasa nk bli dvd koleksi fast and furious...sapa ad eah..?dari tahun 2001 smpai tahun 2011..sapa ad..?crita ni start dri tahun 2001..tapi yang first ni x dan tgk..sbb barisan pelakon x mantap..kene cari balik nih..sape ade...!!??comment please..x sabar nk tgu..next fast and furious..kira ni 3rd movie yg saya layan smpai x sabr nk tgu lagi..before ni..layan pirate of carribean..pastu layan twilight...pastu fast and furious...pergh..cukup minat sequel film ni...ehhh..not to mention..ironman pon follow...tp ending movie mcm hampeh...!superhero pon retired..wat the fish...bt lah ending best sket..bego btol..ape pon..thanks for the day my love..:) sorey...sy taw..awk bnyk kerja kena buat..and u want me to do something that i cant do...forgive me...u know tht i want to..but..theres a problem that we both understand right..so.. Do ur thesis the best my dear..go..go...!!hehe.. Jgn malas2 taw..cabaran..lalui dgn senyuman..ok..gud night all..

Sometimes...saying good night just not enough..

Kadang2...bila kita seronok rasa berbual..x kira lah mcm mn...col ke..direct ke..webcam ke..txt kew..what so ever..kita rasa sgt x puas..bila ending dia akan..okey..gud night..gud bye... Rasa mcm..hmm..nak ckp lagi..until both of them have understanding about some point...bagi saya..i prefer continuous chatting..where..when i speak..they listen..untill they fell asleep...i prefer that way...so i know when it finish..tapi..kalo sembang tghri nk tdo ape nye kan..tapi sllunya tghri..people wont bother how the conversation end..bcoz people busy..x mcm at the end of the day..malam2 tu lah..moment yang penting..kan..?hmm..sometimes..i feel that it is not enuf..umm..ok..gudbye..

Congratulation my friend

Semalam..akad nikah..tghri td..majlis bersanding..tahniah afiq ashraf..selamat pengantin baru..moga ke anak cucu..grand jgk dia kawin..berangan nk wedding mcm tu..tp dia x buat dua belah..dia buat sebelah pihak saja..perkawinan berlangsung di amanpura hotel sungai petani..bt satu tempt je..sbb isteri dia pon org sungai petani..so x pa lah..estimated org yg drg x lah ramai..tp nmpk mcm mmg ramai..umm..belanja kawin around 30k..nk kawin jgk..so kene simpan start dri lepas grad..terus kena simpan..to my sayang..jimat2..and simpan duit ok...:) saya nk bt kt hotel je lah..senang..x yah ssh2..the coincidence nye..kita baru nk plan pakai turqoise..afiq dah buat..tp dia buat masa akad nikah..masa sanding pakai putih..kita green turqoise eah awk..??hehe..berangan rasa nk langsungkan jgk..xpe..kita kumpul duit dulu..semalam makan free..hari ni makan free..tu yang best..ap pon tahniah afiq...be a good husband...kat sini ad lah..pic2 moment wedding ni...sekian..

Cuti datang lagi..

Start dari hari ini...cuti..lagi seminggu...sempena hari wesak...aku still x balik..sbb ad kerja yg kena diselesaikan...bnyk kerja lg yg x hbis..semester ni..rasa mcm pegi kelas rilex sangat..mcm bnyk main..risau pon ade..kene start study dah...baca sikit2..kelas madam hasmah laili rasa mcm bahaya...modus operandi islamic banking..mcm ssh...tapi smua bt mcm rilex je kelas dia..huhu...seminggu..x update blog..

The end of await..

Almost one week baru blh nk online..mcm gile..tp semua dah kurang makna..bila bersepah-sepah assingment..semua nk kene siapkan..erghhh..this 2 week before balik cuti hari wesak ni akan pack with workloads...mcm2 kene buat...tapi nasib sempat jgk curi masa nak main game..kehkehkeh..game is like a candy to a boy..skali dah mkn..susah nk berenti..kadang2 sampai si dia pon dah x larat nk ckp ape..huhu..but she know me better..always give me a space to do wat i love the most...but actually..dgn main game lah..blh lupakan sekejap..msalah..tapi masalahnye kalo main game kalah..tu menambahkan masalah..but at least bila dh penat main game tido..kan..?its a hobby lah main game ni sebenarnya..x salah..kalo nk hobby ap pon..isi masa lapang..the different is what its benefits you..aku rasa hobby aku ni bagus..sbb..blh bt ramai kawan..interesting..and mencabar fikiran jgk..but its depend..jgn smpai layan hobby x buat kerja sekolah..tu jew...actually..i miss her so much..kalo main game tu..kira..hehe..reduce skit kot..umm..tapi mmg geram..sbb xde wifi..x blh nk main game waktu cuti tu..x blh nk only with her...x blh nk twitter and bagai..sgt x best..and now..assingment..erghh..need to do it earlier..need to take part of the job..between group member..nak suruh..bob buat keje..bob ni blh cooperate ke??mcm ssh jew aku mk comm dgn bdk nih..tp kene try...sape yg blajar nk fail kan..?sape yg x nk A kan..?jom kita sama2 usaha..last minute or not..kita torai..okey..gtg..xoxo..tooowww..

Tensi...serious tensi..

Aku tension gile babun lah..sbb mmg siot pn..satu taman aku xde internet..sbb kabel telifon kene PIANG...siot betoi..sape pnya kerja dok curi kable..pnya bnyk kerja ad dalam dunia..p keja curi mencuri ni ape kejadahnya..menyusahkan org lain..ini adalah satu jenayah..bila kata jenayah...mana ad jenayah yg x susahkan org lain..betoi x..?oleh sebab pencuri kabel ni lah..taman aku xde internet sejak selasa lepas..mmg haram pon..dua kali..sblm mengundi hari tu kne curi dah..kali ni...curi lagi kew..?mmg haram jadah sungguh..ap pon xbleh nk buat bila internet xde..mana haram pn pencuri nih..aku rasa..hukuman jenayah paling berat ptot bg kat pencuri...sbb menyusahkan orang ramai..tau lah tembaga mahal..tp x yah lah smpai curi...mmg lah bkn org persendirian..mmg lah TM tu kaya blh ganti bila2...tp masalahnye menyusahkan org ramai..aku stuck terus xde internet..nk main game ssh..nk cari bahan susah..yg paling haram..internet still kne bayar..tp jadi bnda mcm ni..tension beb..nk online dgn si dia pon x blh..serious aku benci pencuri harta awam ni...harta aku kalo curi..lagi aku benci..rasa nk cincang..!ahhhh..tension beb...

Its a lonely day beautiful night..

Friday...bgun almost at 11...x sempat salam dgn ayie...dia dah balik...x sempat nk pesan hati2..hope he is fine..mestilah fine..ad kekasih hati teman kan..hmm..yg ad cuma aku dan popo..lepas siap mandi semua..popo ckp nk balik aloq staq blk..popo dah siap packing and watsoever..dia pon balik..dia balik naik kereta ayah dia..lepas dia dah kuar parking..aku start enjin kereta..panas2 kan enjin kereta..xtaw nk buat ap dah lepas mandi..lepas dah ubah parking masuk dlm rumah..nampk si biru sangat kotor..dah lama x basuh dia..and then trasa nk basuh..dah alang2 x buat ap..so mula la basuh kereta..every detail..smpai ke dalam kereta and siap sembur ambi pure lagi..puas hati...:) dah siap lap2..penat..tapi perut lapar..si dia still x msg..sllu dia pesan bagun and suruh pegi smbhyang jumaat..tapi hari ni x..rupanya dia bz teman kawan dia dating..hmm..dah siap mkn..around 12 something..dok depan tv..nothing to do..mandi2..g smyg jumaat..awal jgk lah pegi..first time awal...hehe..lpas habis jumaat..dia still x msg..col pn x dpt..tertido..and then dia col..rupanya baru balik..majok sekejap..tpi dah kata cinta hati..x de kekuatan nak majok pon..dah reda risau dgn dia sepanjang hari x msg..dia sibuk jmp prof dia sbb thesis..x mampu bt ap..sbb berkaitan blajar..i respect ur time dear..lepas dah tgu lama..tertido blk..dah tjaga..dia still x msg..ap lagi..kita buat bnda mcm biasa..main game..huhu..g cc..main game..tension..x de menang pon..hari ni..mlm pegi main pon..x menang..tension..balik2..si dia ajak chat..we had videocol..lama dah x webcam..umm..we spend the night together..heppy seing her face..sejuk hati...webcam smpai dia tertido..so cute..^.^ i heppy u ad dgn i for the whole years of our relationship dear..if u read this i hope u smile..sudi terima kekurangan saya..biar smua didunia tiada asal kamu ad utk aku..but she look tired..ke sana ke mari..malam tu dia mkn dgn kawan..g giant..langsung x msg..tp i really dont mind..tulah space utk dia dgn kawan dia..:) dah..nk tido..good night peeps..

Financial...

Hari yang boring..nothing to do..got no money in my pocket...this day full with playing games..tu je yang dapat dibuat..nk keluar ke mana2 smua perlukan modal..erm..money..money..everything needs money..masuk toilet pn kne dua posen..nasib toilet kat rumah sendiri x yah bayar..tapi kne bayar bil air pulak kan..?ummm..esok angah nk bagi duit...weehuu..tpi kne bajet utk makan..life as a student is really chalenging...from studies..to financial...everything need to be planned...but most of common student like me face the most frequent crisis that is financial crisis..hmm..ssh..hidup tanpa parents..dan adik beradik yang memahami hnya pada beberapa perkara...my younger sister...hmm..along...she can afford to sponsor my study...but she refuse..gaji dia boleh lah kira nk support..tp dia sllu berkira..as if kalo saya dh hbis belajar and kerja..sy x kn bg benefit kat dia..and she once said tht..."xpe..bli barang2 utk diri sendiri dari adik beradik..." Im so sad when heard she said like that..sptutnya..dia sebagai kakak yg sulung..or abg yg sulung pn..perlu menjaga adik2..saya berharap..kepada sesiapa yang membaca entry kali ini...ingatlah..tanggungjawab seorang abg yg sulung...atau kakak yang sulung..besar..lebih2 jika parents sudah tiada..but im not saying that my sister is the worst sister ever...she is okey..but sometimes...she feel reluctant to help...maybe dia sndiri kdg2 x mmpu..dgn expense and spending desire dia yang besar..tapi..ap yg perlu..seperti topik kita..financial planning..penting... Mcm saya sllu ckp..pada my sister..mcm mn nk planning..kalau source of income xde..planning for spend mungkin boleh..tapi planning to save..maybe not...bagi along..maybe she have to plan to save...hmm..along..is a good sister though..bcoz..walaupon dia ssh nk tolong..but at the end of the day..dia mesti akan tolong on her own way...and she never let me starve when im staying with her..i still thankful..syukur..dikurniakan family ini...alhamdulillah...:)

Kesunyian..

Esok..semua org akan balik..bercuti..tapi aku x dpt nk blik..sbb bnyk kerja yang harus dibuat..diharap..kepulangan aku tidak dinanti..sebab mmg x balik..sedih..tapi..elok jgk kalo x balik..nk bt ape je pon kalo balik..kalo dok sini at least ad kerja nk buat..smua ad..ckup..tapi rasa rndu dekat org tersayang..x terubat..hanya blh txt or col je lah..rasa hati mmg nk balik..tp apakan daya..ad masalah yg x dapat nk dielakkan...kepada sesiapa yang masih punya ibu bapa..pulanglah..melepas rindu pada org tua..huhu..sementara mereka masih didepan mata...terasa sgt sunyi..bila tiad sapa disisi menemani..nasib lah..ada mike and mill..tpi diorg x blh nk bercakap..sbb diorg tu turtle...and ade internet..sosial network..so xde lah sunyi sgt kot..zaman teknologi canggih skrg ni..kan..ade game..boleh hilangkan rasa bosan..umm..tpi lain..kalo kawan2 xda..nmpk x kat situ..kalo kita ad seribu friends kat twitter or facebook wat so ever...tapi kalo kita xde sorang pon kawan ad disisi..kita akan rasa sunyi...sbb..komunikasi yg terbatas...hmm..ap pon...selamat bercuti dan selamat mengundi pada semua kawan2 dan semua warga malaysia...

make it right relationship..

To start a relationship is easy..to maintain a relationship is the crucial part..yep..what im about to say is a fact..kita nk start perhubungan mmg senang..nak mengucap selamat tinggal juga mudah..tapi nk kekalkan hubungan ssh kan..?:) masa mula2 kita berkenalan..everything seems so good..share almost anything at the first time..for boys..kalo ad rokok..share among them pon xpe..right..tp bila dah lama..klo bg jew..maybe they start to talk among them..tp itu contoh..contoh bagi lelaki maybe..tpi perhubungan..mmg begitu..pada awalnya..everything goes smooth..but at the middle..akan ade sikit bumpy ride..btoi x..?and i tink its damn right..nak kekalkan hubungan sesama kita..kita perlu bersabar..and keep calm..anggaplah ianya gurauan dan hnya usikan sbgai teman..dan walau ambil hati..just forget if u cant forgive..:) gudnight..xoxo..

Yesterday

Yesterday..send my love back to her place...before send her..we have a diner in hotmas...she eat chicken chop and she doesnt finish her meal..she said..xnk lah mkn..ade tepung..wait..mana ad chicken chop xde tepung..kan goreng..huhu..but at least she eat and she is not hungry masa nk balik atas bas..i am so sad sending her home..i will miss her...miss u..

28/4

Ahad..dh start g kelas..mcm biasa..kelas agak suram..sbb xde mood..x puas cuti maybe..plus menantok sbb smlm tgk ironman sgt kan...?aishh..dh lah agak keliru tgk ironman ni..end of ironman...nmpk x kat situ...superhero pon boleh retired..manusia biasa x de superpower lagi lah..boleh tired...huhu..sbb tu lah tdo dalam kelas kejap tdi..hehe..lepas habis kelas..teman my love..bt research kat yan...umm..dia nk kaji pasal kampung culture and landscape katanya..just follow je dia..dia jumpa kawan lama..kat sini..sembang almost for 3 hour..umm..perempuan kalo dh bersembang kan..mmg x igt..hehe..nasib lah relax je rumah kawan si dia nih..boleh tgk tv..smbil santai2 lentok atas sofa lgi..huhu..actually best area yan ni..kampung yg cantik and permai..dekat pantai..nyaman..plus...still ad kebun2..best klo ad rumah penginapan kat tempt2 mcm ni..hmm..one day maybe baby...huhu..:) nk lah..tenangkan fikiran..dok tmpt mcm ni..kan..?yelah..kampung sendiri dah bosan..huhu..dpt minum2 petang..dengan suasana mcm ni..dgn si dia..its a perfect evening..:)

Arrive in kuala lumpur.

First day arrive..its friday afternoon...it was horror..smpai je kat ampang...hujan sangat lebat..tiba2 viper xblh nk function..aircond mmg dah x blh function..kompressor rosak..erghh..sehari dlm kereta nk balik..peluh2 macam naik basikal dari kedah..sad..sgt2 sedih..i hope..that my son wouldnt go through what ive been through...hmm..its a painful journey..but..it teach me a lot..nyaris nk excident..umm..pasang lampu emergency..and continue smpai apartment along..nasib lg 200 meter je nk smpai..kalo x..dok lah aku dlm kereta..smpai2 terus tido..x sedarkan diri..pkul 9 mcm tu along balik..crita kat along..along just gelak..hmm..i hope she will help me...repair those part yg dh rosak kat si biru tu..hmm...balik dinner..along ajak karoke..best...tp hati still resah pasal kereta..along ckp..gaji rabu ni she will help..i hope she will..

Tiring saturday

Hari sabtu..penat..mirol my younger brother balik..he return home bcoz he knew im home..dia suruh amik dia kat rumah..smlm lepas karoke dgn along..dia col soh amik..lpas amik dia..kitorg pegi downtown..i buy fake g shock..saya x kisah pon..ianya fake..as long bnda tu blh pakai..and its affordable since saya ni bukan kaya sgt..lpas g downtown..dlm hati dah agak..mirol akan ajak main game smpai lewat pagi..hntr along blik..so my friday night i spend with him playing game whole night..aku ckp kat dia..i dowan to play game..nnt dia x g keje..tp dia ckp..okey..dia pegi..tp sbb dh penat..dia xpegi..aku dah agak..dia pulak soh aku hntr dia..aku mmg x boleh lah klo aku dah penat..dah letak kepala atas bantal..sorry..bagun2 je tido..mirol mmg x pegi keje..pastu dia ajak..aku repair kereta dia..aku pon ikot lah..since xde nk buat ape..pnya lah penat..sehari buat kereta dia..last2 blh jgk start..tpi msalah brake blkg pulak...dh stuck maybe..yelah..setahun x gerak beb..pastu dinner kat kampung baru bila dah settle smua..rindu kat si dia..tpi si dia bnyk kerja..mcm nk x nk layan..and then saya tertidur pegang henfon..hmm..

Boring sunday

Morning sunday..bgun..x tahu nk buat ap..along suruh bli lunch kat mamak..siap2 mandi..trus pegi mamak kat pandan indah ni..nasi kandar arif..sape dok pandan indah taw lah kot kan...bli nasi..gile mahal lah mamak ni charge...amik kambing plus ayam merah..rm10..haha..puas hati lunch..x taw nk buat ap lepas dri tu..tido saja the whole day..msg si dia pn mcm she seems not having the mood..so..just text her like a noob..haha..and she reminded that she will come over..and i said..rumah bersepah..then she told..kemas lah sikit..and about 8 saya kemas rumah..rumah sgt bersepah..x padan dgn pompuan duduk..entah lah..bg korang..rumah lelaki or perempuan yg sllunya korg pergi bersepah..?my opinion is..rumah perempuan..akan lebih bersepah..hmm..menyampah..tiap kali blik mesti aku yg kne kemas rumah..bila dh siap2 kemas..baru lah along rasa nk mask..klo x kemas..im sure..dia akan suruh bli pulak dinner..along masak tomyam..hmm..dh lepas kemas rumah..siap mkn..angah blk kul 10..smenjak ad pakwe..sllu balik lewat mlm..dating lepas krja..and pakwe satu tmpt kerja..terus terang saya sgt x suka pompuan kuar malam..my love..i choose her bcoz i knew..dia jenis x kuar mlm..sbb bnyk perkara yg buruk sllu dibuat waktu malam..so..to me..perempuan yg suka keluar mlm..x bagus..hmm..angah balik..dia prank..!!damn..angah tunjuj surat waran tangkap trafik..aku dah terkejut beruk..sungguh2 baca..siap bgtau along..mcm mn ni along..pastu along gelak..along ckp..nama ko kamal hasan kew..?rupanya..angah prank..nohorom..!!aku plak lupe nk tgk nama org kene saman tu..syukur bukan aku..sbb nama dlm surat tu bukan utk aku..tapi alamat pakai alamat rumah kat kl ni..demn..angah prank aku..dah jadi bahan gelak..huhu..sbnrnya..aku pn pnh kene saman..xbyr smpai skrg..saya rda nk bayar nnt bila dh ad duit..praktikal or dh kerja..huhu..i really nk byr..tp..as a student..with no income..how would i pay those..hmm..thats it..my boring sunday..tapi esok dh x boring..i guess..esok nk dating..with her..:)

Joyous monday

My love arrive...at 10 oclock...im very happy to see her..i cook for lunch...prepare tomyam and fried nugget..spend the whole day with her..im very happy..we dine outside..we dine at bukit saga...with angah...and karoke together..its a happy day of my life...:)

Full tuesday

Happy tuesday..celik mata..seeing her..right before my eyes..watching tv together..do many things from morning to the night..she stay with me and my family for the day...bgun tdo...we go for lunch..lunch at 3..huhu..late lunch..we went to giant padan kapitol...lunch and window shopping..tgk2..berkenan baju tido...dgn boxer..but calculate expenses..x ckup..then fikir balik..next time maybe..along col..soh amik kat office kul 5..we stay there until 5..wasting time before going to fetch her..btolak dari pandan indah to masjid jamek took 25minutes...waiting her at the office building half and hour..rasa meluat tuggu..tp x blh ckp ap..she is my banker..huhu..amik je dia..we go for dinner..tesco ampang..makan kat santai..dinner mkn kuaytiow..umm..tadi kat pandan kapitol..ad weight machine..timbang2...!!wow..81kg.. Im losing 10kg..with the diet..not bad..last time timbang..sem lepas kat aloq staq..94kg kot..haha..usop dgn zul gelak time tu aku ckp berat aku turun sbb nk cover malu berat sgt..haha..akim lgsung x nk timbang..akim takot penimbang kot..but now im proud of myself..lose my weight kot..huhu..semangat rasa nk diet lagi..hee..until 75 kot..insyaallah..hmm..dh selesai dinner..along teringin makan kfc korea baru tu..so tapau kfc pulak..pas tapau tu..kami bli brg basah kat tesco..along spending..tiba2 nampak sale utk boxer..td nmpk boxer kat giant..kat tesco murah..so..bli lah..haha..amik 6 helai trus..6 for rm40..kalo kat giant td..4 for rm44...huhu..terasa pengguna bijak hari ni..esok..along nk repair kereta..baiki aircond and viper..thanks along..i owe her so much..along mmg bnyk membantu kalo aku ad kat sblh dia..tp klo aku jauh..dia mcm ssh sikit nk tolong..maybe kalo ak kat sebelah dia..aku pandai pujuk kot..kan..?klo aku jauh nk pujuk mcm mn..kan..?pakai phone..dia senang nk letak phone..huhu..aku sbrnya bnyk mintak tolong along..and i will paid her back..when im done study..all of my family..walaupn kadang2 rasa mcm xnk..hmm..tp nk bt mcm mn..family is still family..air dicincang x kan putus..kan..??so..sayangilah family anda..jgn lah terlampau berkira..yg besar dah tentu kene bantu yg kecik..my late dad always tell us since we were child..jaga lah adik2 kakak2..korg ade 4 org je..xde 5..xde 6..yg racun pn dia..yg penawar pn dia..esok bila abah dah xde..jaga lah masing2..jgn gaduh2..abang(aku) kene mengalah..kat adik(mirol)...;( itulah konsep abah..kalo gaduh2..yg besar akan kene marah..supaya sabar..bertolak ansur pada adik..sbb tu aku bnyk diam..kalo ap2 beralah..so..xde lah bergaduh tu panjang..meleret2..tapi bagi kami..tinggi suara tu perkara biasa..nyai(nenek) penah ckp..org jawa ni mmg suka kuat2kn suara..so aku dh taw sebab ap family aku kalo bincang..mmg mcm tengking2..rupanya mmg sejak dulu lagi keturunan mmg mcm tu..tapi..benda ni smua blh ubah..maybe esok or lusa..dah ad family..aku akan buat cara berbeza..insyaallah..salam..:)

Wednesday full schedule

Wake up in 10am..bright sunshine..its a beautiful morning..along cuti..dia ad appointment dgn doctor..at pantai hospital..she wakes me up..teman dia g hospital..misha pergi skolah..acompanied by ummi..we went to pantai hospital..went to specialist hospital is a good things..x perlu tunggu lama2..crita dgn ummi..she said that she want to deliver her babies in private hospital..i said..its okey..im fine with it..along ckp..its about 10k..okey lah kan..?smentara tu plan lah..okey..up to workshop..cari2 kedai aircond kat area pudu..dah jmpa..then buat..sejam lebih dia suruh tunggu..pastu..dia soh jalan kat maju junction dlu..kitorg pon jalan..along jmp sophie paris..along bli another handbag..and jadi ahli..rupanya..sophie paris ni MLM jgk..tp xde lah dahsyat sgt mcm luxor ke ap..jenis kecik2..mcm avon and tupperware mcm tu..and im one of along network..nnt balik kedah nk cari customer..hehe..brg dia mmg style jgk..xcaye try search kat google.."sophie paris" umm..dah 2 jam jalan kat maju junction..siap mkn kek..kitorg blik kat bengkel..aircond dah siap..alhamdulillah..kerja diorg cemerlang...sejuk dah aircond..dlm lebih kurang pukul 4 kitorg g cari bengkel utk betoikan viper..nk cari hapkat...tapi pnya lah ssh...smpai selayang..smpai2 kedai plak tutup..erghhh..keciwa..nasib along ckp..jom lah g pasar..then kami g pasar bli ikan..utk masak esok..pastu bli pisang..hehe...lapar sgt..kitorg terus balik..amik misha kat taska..misha baru selesai mkn..x join kami dinner..mnum jew..smpai kat taska td..misha dah nk tdo..when i call her name in kindergarten.."misha..jom balik..." She seem very excited..i feel very sorry to her...dia nmpk sgt seronok dpt balik..sbb dari pagi..dia dok sana..kesian..kalo parents kerja..anak kne dok kat taska kan..i hope..tht i can spend time much longer with my child soon..

Last minutes job

Hari ni bgun tdo lewat..sbb smlm..mirol balik..ajak main game lagi..hri ni..dia balik lagi..ajak main game lagi...entahlah..dia xpe lah..kerja..aku ni pengangur terhormat..huhu..pengangur kew..?yelah..xde buat ap..kan..?cuti..pengangur lah..bgun pukul 3..pastu kelam kabut nk submit surat praktikal..dah dgn hujan lebat..ic x photostat..sampul surat xde..alamat x tulis lagi..last2..jumaat jgk aku submit surat tu..sedih..last minute boy...kene marah dgn along..hmm..along xnk tolong repairkan wiper kereta..sedih gile...mcm mn aku nk balik..hmm..lagi satu..rasa mcm malas je nk balik..sbb nnt ad cuti mengundi lagi..kan..?malasnye...huhu..esok..nk g hntr surat praktikal..ad 4 surat nk kne hantr..pagi2 kne bgun..tpi mirol ajak men game..mcm mn..?main kejap je ke eah..?aduhh..dilemma..dilemma..

Long journey

Done holiday..kne balik kedah..smbung blajar..hari ni bertolak...dari kuala lumpur...dgn my love..first time drive jauh2 dgn dia..just both of us..its a best moments ever..rasa best sgt..lain rasanya bla ad dia masa drive..ad org hulurkan snack..ad org nk bual...mmg best..bertolak pukul 4...smpai dlm kul 8..pas sampai..drop kat rumah sewa..dia x kuar kereta ..aku just drop brg2 and we went to amanjayamall..plan nk tgk ironman..lupa kitorg xde cash..and amanjaya xde atm..gile..dah beratur panjg2 skli x blh nk guna debitcard..frust..tp oleh sbb nk sgt tgk..and jarang dpt spend masa sama2..kitorg keluar g cari atm...dah ad cash..kitorg bratur balik..and dpt tiket..yg x bestnye..we got the second row seat..mmg x best..tp oleh sbb tgk dgn si dia..semua pon okey..:) pastu kitorang pon pegi kat cmart...diorg menipu..kitorg bli body shampoo..kat display price..rm4.50 and bila nk byr..its rm5.50...diorg pon..ckp..ohh..itu harga lama..and then..saya ckp..no..!i dowan rm5.50 i want rm4.50..pastu diorg ckp x blh..i ask to see their manager..and then diorg ckp okey..their manager came politely even she is not malay as me..she said that she can give me rm4.50 and say sorry..she make the decision with im saying nothing..she handle it good..but her assistant..who is malay said.."rm1 je kew..??" Very rude to me..its really not about how big is the amount..its about our right..cuba korang bayangkan..if benda ni happen to thousand of people..x jumlahya akan jadi besar..?i know some people might just ignore..but to me..its about right..and its called "cheating" in business..and cashier to ckp..bnda ni mmg slalu berlaku...i said..what..?mmg diorg suka wat keje mcm tu kew..?gile lah..hmm..saya x suka..but im happy with what im fight for..and the result is im winning the cases..case solved...huhu.ok..nak enjoy movie..bye..!!

Last day before mid-term

Hari ni hari khamis...habis dah kelas kul 12 td..suppose to have 3 class today..but only got 2 class..takaful class has been dismiss..which is good..better dismiss class than talking about politics for the whole hours...the first class is at 8...the second class is at 2 supposely but my classmate popo ask prof to change it after 10..and he agree..so tht my mid-term start early..huhu..cant wait to go back to kl..see love of my life..long enough not seeing her..umm..i miss her so much..i hope u know..hmm..kelas sgt relax hri ni..hehe..doing nothing..last night playing snooker untill 4 thats y i feel tired for the class...first..objective balik..mid term is to find place to do my intern..the second is to..meet my love..three..to ask along to repair my car...four..holiday..yeeehaa.. Huhu..klo x blh balik hri ni..khamis..tpi i have to do something in friday...nk tukar voucher..huhu..sbnrnya..nk shopping bnyk brg..tp tu lah..financial has to be planned well..so put aside ur wish..make needs priority..to all universiterion...!!or uitm student...happy holiday..:) peace and love...!bye..

Throwback...

Tiba2 teringat..my first 3d movie..watching GI:JOE RETALIATION...its awesome...first movie..kan..?before x pnh tgk 3d...bkn sbb ap..sbb sblm ni tgk dvd 3d..sakit mata..and pening..i said to myself..rsanya klo tgk kat wayang lagi sakit mata..then i never try it..smpai lah tersa nk tgk sbb popo kawan aku suggest tgk..dia ckp..peluru real..subtitle depan mata..kat atas hidung je..terasa mcm nk cuba..then kat situ lah aku tgk wayang 3d for the first time..kat amanjaya mall sungai petani..mmg berbaloi..lepas dri ni..aku akan tgk kat gsc...sahaja..sbb kawan aku ckp..kalo tgk kat tgv..sakit mata..xtaw lah..maybe kualiti video and spek dia kot kan...?but its really fun..and i enjoy it...i plan to watch this upcoming movie ironman 3...pergh..sure gempak kalo 3d..and i wish that i can watch this with love of my life..syg..kita pegi tgk eah..?sy nk awak cuba jgk...^^ anyone..?wanna come along..jom lah..!!heee...anyway..hri ni lepas jawab test..sgt letih..tp member ajak men snooker..and for the celebration i think..kitorg pn main..its fun also..release tension sikit..tapi pening kpala sbb x rehat lg..okey..i need to sleep..tomorrow kelas ustaz daeng...."engkorang...!!attandance penting ye...engkorang jgn x dtg kelas..ustaz xnk..lambat pn xpe..jnji engkorang dtg.."ahhahaha..okey..
sayonara...syg..!!slmt mlm...ohh.. Awk dh tdo dlu..ok..bye..

Test 1 for both islamic capital market and islamic legal framework

Tonight..there will be test for both subject in a sequence..study for a small test but prepare like to face final..huhu..its a killer paper okey..for those who pursuing the islamic banking course..they know what i an about to tell..this both subject is very difficult since one of them is learning about the legal system or law in malaysia and the other one is about the system of islamic financial..i have been prepared for this test..mentally and physically since i sleep a lot during study..seems cool..but im pretty afraid to go through this..hmm..i hope we can do well classmate..go go chayok...!!impossible is nothing..hehe..since its seem ridiculous having two test in two hour..omg..!but i think we can do it well...with bismillah..lets go to answer the test..with assalamualaikum..i close this conversation..with thank you i appreciate who read this blog..:)

Friends with benefits

Friend with benefits..its common in friendlihood..does friend with benefits will not consider as best friend...??hmm..kalo nk ikotkan..org yg jadi kawan baik kita..mestilah x da ap intention utk gunakan kita..right..??tpi klo kita ssh..kawan yg baik akan tolong kita kan..?am i right..?kalo kita sekali sekala mintak tolong kat kawan tu..thats called mintak tolong..but if hari2 kita mintak tolong..thats too much..kan..?or dia rasa itu bukan satu pertolongan..tp bg aku itu satu pertolongan..hmm..aku rasa berlalu tidak adil kat situ...bila..hari2 dia buat benda yg sama..as if dia booking utk mintak tolong..mcm dah mesti dia yg akan ditolong berbanding aku yg sekali sekala nk mntk tolong..aku nk mntk tolong org lain dah naik segan..tapi dia mcm x segan langsung dgn org yg dia mintak tolong hari2..dia bila perlukan kami..dia mai kat kami..tapi bila dia dgn kawan2 dia..nk tolong ap pn tidak..nk pelawa ap pn tidak..feel like being used...lucky..my other friend yg sllu menolong tu..tolong saya mntk sign dari industry training supervisor utk internship ni..to you..i say thank you very much bro..u r really the elder brother..umm..entah..mmg rasa mcm its a war..thug of war..when we as a friend have to fight over a thing..and its ridiculous..i heve to depends on my own..even i have my old skool car..i bring it down to merbok..i never giv an excuse to ask sympathy from others..bcoz i am not that type of person who always seek help from friends except if i really have to..not saying that this person is bad..and this person is good..but..u may think yourself..hah..!!continue study..tonight got test..2 test in 2 hours continuosly..ade bran ke bro..??haha..but seems past sem test question is not as hard as it seems to be...ok..gtg..bye..~

The internal scandals...

Hari ni...hari yg x berapa nk letih sgt sbb kelas..tp agak letih..sbb bergayut dgn yg tercinta smpai lewat pgi..tapi its a good chat and time dear..thanks a lot..i love u so much..sy hargai ap yg awak dh lakukan utk saya slma ni..and i will not take it for granted...okey..hari ni..kat kelAs..xde ap yg best..kelas islamic capital market a bit dull..like always...kelas research methodology batal..which is nice..and kelas strategic management ada presentation tp..i just ignore it..doing my own things dlm kelas..tp masa ad test last2 tu agak menggelupur..smua org sibuk tiru..which is not good..tp sptotnya aku pon buat jgk...tapi aku x bt..so aku fpt 34/60...org len dpt 40+...okeh..lepas ni aku akan tiru..sbb nnt cary mark rendah..org lain tiru..nnt aku sendiri rasa x adil..hmm..mlm dari tu..study utk test rabu mlm ni...ade dua test..mmg goyang pon..si dia tidor awal..tgh2 msg..terus dia lelap..i understand how tired you are my dear...sorry for everything...lepas habis study..lepak2 dgn kawan...open conversation between us..no barrier...there is a lot to hear..and reveal part of secret and scandal...aku tau..diorg still ad sikit lagi rahsia...tp aku rsa itu dah ckup..as long kawan2 dh bukak cerita masing2..:) i love open conversation with my friend bcoz its a sign of how strong is a relationship between us when u talk frankly and open...i discover a lot of things tonight..hmm..but need to remind myself and who is reading this...between love and friendship..there is always race and war...sometimes you have to be upfront to stand all the rest...esok..i will go to validate my internship letter..so i need to go in early morning and continue study for the test coming..i really want to go with him..but other took place while i have ask him earlier..really hate to fight over this and finally..i have to go myself..alone..so..gud night...sleep things..:) salam..

Its a celebration...

Hari ni..ade test..test untuk kelas research methodology...walaupun study sikit2..tapi boleh jawab..hahaa..bkn blh jawab sbb ape pn..sbb open book test pon..prof madya maznah mmg prof yg terbaik..sempoi...dah la mcm kak ton...!!comey x...??hahahaha..tapi ape pon best...lepas habis test methodology..g celebrate dgn classmate..boys only..!!thanks mat supi..bwk kami celebrate lpas dri test walau nmpk mcm kuar biasa2 but to me..its a celebration...lpas habis kelas kami terus pegi bandar..tujuan sebenar nk habiskan voucher buku..tapi x jadi..then pegi karoke sejam..alang2 dah kat luar..kami buka puasa sbb ad antara kami yg puasa sunat..mkn kat hotmas...dah lama x mkn sejak last sem...terbaik..sebelum ni mkn western..rupanya mknanan melayu dia pon best..patotlah tmpt ni x pnh lengang dgn cutomer..mkn yee mee goreng...ade udang..ayam semua ckup..tmbah telur mata pulak..mmg terbaik lah...!!lepas dari tu..p ronda2 rumah tokey village mall kat sungai petani nih...bapak besar gile..rumah kat tgh2 pekan besar mcm tu..aku tnya kawan aku..mat supi..tokey village mall ni melayu ke..mat supi jawab..xkan melayu..!!!so aku tnya lah lagi..melayu ke..??dia jawab.."terang cina punya..." Hmm..mmg cina punya rumah..habis semua shopping mall kat sungai petani nih..kebanyakannya cina yang punya..mcm mn lah eah...mall yang bru bukak kat sungai petani c-mart amanjayamall tu pon milik melayu..hmm..mcm mn lah..diorg ni boleh bukak mall besar2 kat tanah kita..mana pergi melayu..melayu xde ke yg kaya2 nk bukak mall..nk tolong melayu lain jadi mcm diorg..??tapi lumrah melayu..kalo kaya kene dengki..ckp buruk pasal org tu..hmm..bila melayu nk maju..aku harap..suatu hari nanti..aku nk bukak business jgk..ap business pn xpe..janji ekonomi xsemua dikuasai oleh cina..hmm..tapi mmg kita masih ditakuk lama..melayu yg kaya..semakin kaya..yang miskin semakin miskin..kita perlukan persatuan utk buat dana kaum melayu..mcm mara..tapi kene buat lebih bnyk..x hanya bergantung pada mara..tapi itu cadangan aku sahaja..utk naikkan ekonomi orang melayu..hmm..sedih..negara yg dulu dikenali tanah melayu..tapi ekonominya dikuasai oleh bangsa lain...ehh..rabu mi ade test..dua test..sejam berturut2 test..perghh..have to start study..gud bye guys...!!

Bongkak...!!

Hari ni..aku sembang dgn budak kelas aku..x perlu didedahkan nama dia sape..tapi dia nie sembang mmg kemas gile habaq hang..dari member2 mmg dah dengar lah yg dia ni ckp memang lebat nk mampus..sembang x nk jatuh..aku benci gile org mcm ni..sembang kalo x jatuh xpe..ni sembang bg org lain jatuh tu yg x blh terima..nk sembang pasal politik..ckp nk fakta..pastu bila dia ckp..mintak fakta dia pulak x blh nk bg..fuck you..!aku serious x blh blah org mcm ni..pape pon kelas hari ni..x bnyk yg aku blajar..lecturer pn asyik dok sembang pasal politik..please be professional..x perlu kot nk sembang pasal politik dalam kelas..smua geng tukang tilik ni blh berenti tilik nasib negara kot..kononya malaysia boleh jadi lagi maju dari skrg nih..ni ape cerita..geng2 nih bagus btoi..ramai ahli ekonomi perancang negara..ramai tukang tilik..bagus..slogan "ini kali..." Hahaha..nmpk sgt slogan pon pelat cina..pengaruh DAP kuat sgt kot noh..?haishh..ap pon ak xnk ckp pasal politik..cuma aku x suka kalo ko politik dgt and nk jatuhkan org lain..yg kawan jadi lwan..hmm..thts it..sekian..

During The Meantime

Its been a while since my last post...have'nt post anything since previous semester of my studies..alhamdulillah..im still breathing,living like anyone else..last previous semester after done with final examination..i have a problem with my sister..they refuse to send me some money to go back to kuala lumpur...but thanks to my friend yusof firdaus...he help me a lot...if there is no help from him..i donow what im going to do here in merbok...

Arrival in kuala lumpur..i have nothing to do...but i have set up my mind and ready to work to get extra pocket money..i take a step..live with my younger brother...he find me a temporary job while im staying with him..staying with my brother teach me a lot...how hard it is to eat without insufficient money..starv for a day...eat once per day..im lucky that my younger brother has already work for quite long and he can take care of me..he gave me pocket money to go to work..yes..i work for the semester break..i work as a waiter in a snooker club..i have a lousy assistant supervisor..he is boss-wanna-be...everything he do..he show it in front of the boss...funny..boss is having a drink in the opposite cafe with the snooker club..he suddenly sweep in front of our shop..not sweep inside...i feel like i want to kick him on face..he is bossy...and what make me annoy him most is because he is bangladesh..he is married to local citizen..sabahan girl..once my indonesian customer chat with me..they ask about that bangadesh guy..they ask "does he married?" i said "yes, married with sabahan.." that indonesian replies "why..always sabahan married to foreigner..?" i was monologue with myself..."bcoz sabahan is desperate i guess" or they are not sabahan..they are foreigner with given ic to vote..-__-" i donow and dont have any idea whether its true about the rumour or not..about giving ic to vote for certain parties.

Ok...done work for 1 month...and been paid..i managed to go back to kedah to continue my study...here i am..study like before..but this semester is my "finishing school"...!!!yeahhh...i want to be on dean list this semester..hope i can do it...actually i want to work because during semester break...is because of certain reason...i want to do something important in my life..ive made my decision..and i walk through it..and now im done...alhamdulillah..to whom i mention here..you know who you are..i love u so much...i will keep my promise..

On a trip for holiday few days back..was the great experience in my life..for the first time...im out of this country..staying outside of our own country make me realize..there is no better place than our homeland..our homeland malaysia is far away better than other country..our goverment provide a lot of subsidies and price control for our need..so that we still can eat with reasonable price..not like in other country..our transportation is also better than other country..i learn how to be GRATEFUL..alhamdulillah..TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHKU...but going other country is such a good experience...

Now..the only things that mind my mind is...when is the loan are going into my bank account..??im dying...!!omg..please make it fast...my pocket is almost empty...but my mind keep thinking about buying goods, suunto watch...ipad mini...h&m tshirt...erghhh..arif...come to sense..human wants is unlimited...stop it....!!!but i still want...:( maybe i will find another way to get those stuff...ok...i want to start brainstorming...so long guys...